...you wanna know what the most difficult thing in life is? Some would say that it is learning from your mistakes, or even doing the right thing. But no...because when you think about it, learning is a way of moving on. Doing what is right helps to avoid consequences that would otherwise be unpleasant.

Sometimes, even the simplest things in life make you want to give up and go sit in the corner. Sometimes you think the whole world is going to fall apart. But then you look up.

Look around you little boy. The world hasn't yet crumbled around your feet. The sky is still blue, despite the comments of the colorblind, and you're still in paradise. What more can you ask for? Sure, there is always that inner quest for self-fulfillment and the greater search for lifelong partners, but part of that quest is learning to get up off of your rear end and find you own way to live. The way you need to live alone. The way only you can go.

Then, and only then will you be strong enough to carry someone else along the way.

I brush my hair back from my face behind my ears, lowering my eyes from yours. I simply cannot meet them without feeling the light butterflies in my stomach, or the wonderous calm of peace about me. Life has become so much simpler since that day...that day I became brave again.

I am used to bearing the soldier's burden, casting aside my feminimity for a sharp weapon or a book to research. I am a tactician, a warrior...never simply a woman. This is all new terriroty in which I have never explored before. Needless to say, it scares me. What do I do when I cannot interpret what we discuss as military or philisophical actions? How do I react to the tender caresses you favor me? Am I even worthy of such attentions?

All of this is so undescribably new and free...

Please don't let this feeling go away.

*Chu*

Wow......I believe I wandered a little farther out into the fields than I had thought to. ^_^U Well, I apologize for hose who are keeping track of me....

Well, I don't have any problems today, but I did leave some advice to a certain Eflboyluver. I hope she reads my message and writes me back soon.

Until again! ^_^ *wave*